5.17am, Tuesday August 2nd 2016. I have this thing recently where I start my posts with a date and time stamp, I think it's me just trying to bring this back to its original usage - a diary. I haven't slept since I woke up Monday morning which is going to be a fun way for me to get through my day. It's a semi-casual day today; doctor's appointment, university and then I get to babysit my two favourite kids (Clark and Aila)!! I have a few things/people getting me through life, of late, and their lovely mumma (Meg) is definitely one of them.

I don't know what's gotten into me lately, well I sort of do but I'm totally not comfortable sharing. I don't know if it's that I'm not comfortable sharing with people, or I'm not yet ready to face it and actually have to say it (well, type) aloud. I won't be taking a break from my Internet life, but I'm going to be taking a break from my real life. Of course, I have university lectures & tutorials to attend, and I can't completely shut myself off from my friends or family, but I need to take a lot more time for myself. I've spent the past two months or so surrounded by people constantly and that has sucked out a lot of my energy. I spent five weeks surrounded by my American family, a week surrounded by high school students while being a Student Teacher and a week in Canberra. For a lot of people this would be awesome, and don't get me wrong, I've loved every moment of it and I'm so grateful for the incredible time I had in America & Canberra and all the amazing memories I made from those two trips. But, my personality type needs to be alone in order to re-energise and refresh. As some of you may be aware, Thursday is my birthday. I have very little plans for the day (which I'm very much looking forward to), but my best friends and I are going into the city on Saturday for the night to have some quality girls time and go out for some drinks to celebrate. After I finish the rest of my socialising week, I'm going to take a bunch of time for myself and not force myself into social situations that I don't want to be in. Again, I'm so grateful that I have the type of friends who want to spend time with me over the weekend, but I'm an introvert (I like to think of it as being hermit) and I love to be alone. But, I am also very excited to celebrate my birthday with my close friends!

I don't really know why I can't get to sleep. Some form of my crazy insomnia and lack of personality recently. I have just been in bed, tossing and turning for the past 8 hours trying to fall asleep but nothing is working. My psych has told me to not take any form of medication for two weeks while my hormones and whatever inside my body readjust and I can start another medication.

Ugh. Why am I bothering with blogging anymore?!