I think I've found my happiness. Finally. Here's my theory right - happiness comes from within, yeah? This is something that I've been struggling with for quite a number of years now and have finally, in the past 2 weeks, come to find. People who try and argue with you that happiness comes from the outside and materialistic things are pure liars (that may be too strong)... I had been told this previously and had worked on myself from the outside; clearly, it didn't work. I thought that I could control my happiness by eating a block of chocolate, having a glass of wine, buying myself a pair of shoes, or hanging out with people I thought others "wanted" me to hang out with. Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong. It took my 18 years, 9 months and 4 days to realise how I could discover my own happiness. It's been a combination of being happy with my uni grades, work life, relationships and weight - along with a few other things.      

I am single for the first time in about 6 years, which is weird to say considering I'm only 18... But it's true and, honestly, one of the most liberating feelings ever! And I'm totally embracing it too! Not feeling obliged to be texting somebody 24/7, not feeling guilty for staying in bed all day instead of going to see someone, having a girls night and not feeling bad about it - but most of all, being able to completely find myself and discover who I am as a person. If I'm honest, I was terrified to be single and out in the world on my own. But if I can recommend anything to anyone, it would be to spend some time being single and being on your own. I've now been single for about 3 months and in that time I feel like I've grown into a totally different person, someone who is confident(ish), independent and totally fine going solo (for now). It's such an incredibly liberating feeling to have the ability to discover yourself and I am incredibly grateful for this time.

I never had much desire to lose weight or become more 'healthy' or anything but it just sort of happened. I use the term healthy in quotations because it's such a broad and complex topic now... In November 2015 I decided to book a mini health vacation for a week to distance myself from reality to try to better myself. Since then, I've somehow managed to lose about 16kg's and completely changed my diet. It wasn't an intentional thing to lose that much weight, but I told myself that I wanted to feel more confident when I looked at myself in the mirror. I now do. I think I still have a little way to go, but with the help of my PT, eating healthy and doing yoga a few times a week I'm slowly on my way to reaching my goal. Overall changing my diet has completely changed how I feel, I just feel a lot happier and it's definitely true that what you put into your body adjusts how you feel!