Identity Crisis.

Friday, November 04, 2016

Happy Friday everyone!! Hope you've had a fabulous week and are ready for an action packed, exciting weekend - or a weekend spent in bed binge watching Netflix, whatever you prefer :-) 

I started my Friday off with somewhat of a mental breakdown. I submitted my final assignment for the semester and have one final assessment (an exam) next week until classes go back in March 2017. That scares me. 5 months of "freedom" before another year of uni!! 
I've decided to take a much reduced work load next semester and become a part time student - meaning I only do 2 subjects, instead of 4 (well, I've been doing 5/6). The truth is, as much as I've been trying to fake my way through looking relaxed and chilled and pretending I don't care about assignments and stuff - I've been so fucking stressed. I've gained about 5kg in 6 or so weeks... I'm a stress eater.

This morning was the last straw. I sat at my desk, like I have for the past 2 years (it's been 2 years out of high school, how crazy?!?) to finish an assignment. This morning at 11am, I hit submit and had a panic. As I seem to do a lot, at least these past couple of years... I think it might have to do with my age and being in the awkward phase of not really a teenager but definitely not an adult kind of thing. But I'm totally having an identity crisis and don't know what the heck I'm doing with my life anymore... I want to continuing studying education - I think - but I'm hating my geography minor and don't really know what to do with my course. Do I switch over to a Bachelor of Arts, finish it and do a post graduate degree in education?! Do I continue until I gradute in a couple of years (hoping to extend it for a few more years so I can have like 4 or so years chill before having to graduate) and then decide to take another degree on?

This is really just a brain dump - the reason I created this blog... To get things out of my head, without having to bore my friends and family. 

For now, I'm going to take the next few months to chill and do some serious soul searching and hope in the process I find my passion and at least some part of my identiy. 

XO

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