When people ask me what I do for work, I definitely struggle to give them a proper answer. I never really know what to tell them; telling them that I'm a blogger never seems to suffice because no on really knows what that means. Telling them I'm a writer technically isn't lying, but I would never share that with people. And nothing else really covers it. So I usually start with I write stuff online and then explain from there.
I'm an oversharer when it comes to blogging. I've written some things that I'm not proud about sharing, but never removed them because, well, if I'm honest, they have been some of my most popular posts. People enjoy hearing about other people's misery. It's just a fact of life. I get it. We find comfort in watching sad movies and crying over sad songs. I find it quite interesting to read back through my old posts and see how much I have changed. Not only as a person but even in my style of writing.
Being a blogger is a weird job. I don't have set hours, I don't have a set income, and people don't think you do anything. It's hard to complain about work when no one actually understands what it is or how many hours are put into it.
I easily spend 15 hours of my day doing 'blog related things'. Whether that be taking phone calls, replying to emails, writing guest posts for other people's blogs or writing and editing my own posts. I have to be available to take calls and answer emails 24/7...
That's why I have something I need to share with you all. I have decided that (after this week) I will be cutting down the professionalism of this blog. I have decided that blogging on my own and not under the guidance of a company that I will be a lot happier and be able to focus not only on my university degree but also on my friends. For the sake of my mental health, I need to go back to blogging as I used to. This doesn't really mean much for you guys; I will still be uploading Monday, Thursday and Saturday as normal but I will be able to freely write about what I want to write about.
So basically, I'm a professional oversharer; an internet writer. And I am so grateful for the opportunities that you guys have given me over the past few years by supporting my blog.
Book:
I bought a book called Miss You by Kate Eberlen. If I'm honest, I only bought it because I had seen quite a few bloggers rave about it and I thought it would be something relaxing and that I wouldn't have to think much about. BUT OH MY did I get super involved in it!! I'm not usually one for romance novels, I prefer murder and crime stories instead but this book was so hard to put down. *moment of honesty* I actually read it twice while overseas because it was that great!
Fashion:
I think my favourite clothing item would be a combination of my Adidas Superstars and a pair of black jeans. I took 3 pairs of black jeans over to the UK/Germany and just switched out different shirts. I always try to stick with basics when travelling because it's easier to mix and match.
Music:
I listened to my usual Spotify playlists because I didn't want to use data while overseas to stream music, so not much changed music wise during June :) much love, XO
Another pre-scheduled post, due to being overseas.
Friendships are weird... They're filled with uncertainty, sensitivity and loads of feelings. Finding, making and keeping friends can be one of the most complex situations for us Millennials. We're used to everything being so instant, that for most of us, the idea of developing a frienship can sometimes seem unfavourable. We live in a world where we question and overthink everything. They haven't liked my last three Instagram photos, are we still friends?! We are constantly looking for the approval from those around us. I'm guilty of it myself, I constantly send multiple selfies to friends and ask which one, if any, I should post on Instagram...
We're all guilty of holding on to friendships for longer than need be just because they know your dark secrets or you just don't know how to get out of the friendship. Not all friendships are forever.
"People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime." - M. Ventor
I think the most important thing, for me to remember, is that true friends don't judge you. Instead, they help you grow. I've definitely made some big mistakes, and from that big decisions, and I was happy to know that those closest to me, helped me grow from those situations. Another thing, is that true friends make time for each other. I mean, I fly halfway across the world, to Seattle, to spend time with one of my best friends. True friends understand that life is busy, but you are both willinging to schedule in a coffee date (even if it has to be every 2 weeks or longer).
As you probably know, I am currently overseas. Here is a post I wrote sometime last year and stored it in my "back up posts" for times like this - when I'm overseas and don't have my laptop to write posts.
Stay single until you meet a guy who opens every door you walk through. A guy who makes sure you walk on the inside of the path, away from traffic. A man whose friends know who you are before they meet you. Stay single until you meet a man who holds your hand shamelessly and kisses you in public. Until you meet a guy who doesn't try to change you.
Stay single until you find a man who always texts you back. A guy who doesn't have time for games and is always honest. Until you find a guy who kisses your forehead. Stay single until you meet the guy who sticks to his word. A man who brings you flowers for no reason. A man who makes you a better person.
Stay single until you meet a guy who motivates you to be a better person. A guy who is sure of you and never doubts you. Stay single until you meet someone who makes you feel beautiful, on the inside and out. A guy who gives you butterflies.
Until you meet this man, the man you can't live without, enjoy being single.
I did a few similar posts to this last year and I thought I would add another to the collection. It's a letter to my future daughter.
If I were to ever have a daughter, I know that I would cage her in my arms and preserve her childhood. I would do this to protect her from the world, because I learnt that growing up is never easy. In saying this, I will ensure she grows up patient and kind. I will tell her that sometimes people can be cruel, but that doesn't give her the right to inflict pain on others. I will show her how she is my world and that when she holds my hand, she will never be lost.
If I have a daughter, I will tell her that beauty isn't defined by the contour on her face or curves on her body. And that confidence is a key trait. Confidence, not cockiness. And when she comes home one night, puffy eyed and shattered from her first heartbreak, I will tell her that loving someone doesn't mean they won't hurt you.
Inevitably, there will be days when she will curse me and lock herself away, but I will always have my door unlocked and ready with hot chocolate and a warm hug.
When she decides to leave our house, I hope that she finds someone who will love her and all of her flaws. I hope she finds someone who will always cherish her and look at her with awe, someone who will respect her.