One of the two is a girl I've recently become close with from school (ugh, remember that time?) Our friendship started off quite weird - some kind of sassy rivalry in English class toward each other. But that soon passed and we realised how similar we were: we both write blogs (go check her's out ), are obsessed with the same books, the same movies, we have the same interests basically. And love to grab a coffee together and catch up on our latest adventures being "adults" now. [I use that term very loosely because we are both petrified of the word.] (Stella - I know you're reading this… no judgement of how soppy it is okay?) She's just someone I get and who gets me and I just feel like when I am around her I can say anything and she won't be there to judge - only help. In fact, tonight, she messaged me an article about how boys are hot dogs and it was just what I needed. 

Anyway, the point of this is that, tonight after basically my entire (teenage) life being a very unemotional person and someone who tries to forget anything bad has happened and bottles everything up [which results in me just getting angry at myself and punishing myself for not being a stronger willed person] I finally lost it. In fact, this was my message to Stella: "As I sit here, in my favourite lingerie, silk robe, drinking white wine - I finally had my first cry about the whole situation tonight. It just got to me. Like an overwhelming sense of emotions. I hate emotions." I can't handle not knowing how to feel. I am always in control of my body, my emotions, and I never let anything or anyone get in the way of that. But something has finally cracked, something has finally broken me and I don't know what or how to feel about anything. I've been mindlessly watching The O.C. and living vicariously through the character Marissa Cooper who is my all time favourite. Although, I think she is supposed to be everyone's favourite considering she is the protagonist and that was the writers intention but she's just the character I can most relate to. 

Basically, I am broken. Some pipes are broken in my body and there is water leaking from my eyes. I'll get them fixed soon. I promise. 

Xo

(P.S. I realise I may need to explain that message I sent to Stella. The only thing that has been making me feel better about myself recently is lounging around in lingerie, drinking wine and watching The O.C.) 

Isn't it crazy how we can look back a year ago and realise how much everything has changed? The amount of people that have left your life, entered and stayed. The memories you won't forget and the moments you wish you did. Everything. It's crazy how all that happened in just one year. 

- Unknown 

You're not the same individual you were a year ago, a month ago, a week ago. You're always growing. Experiences don't stop. That's life. 

- Unknown 

I owe no explanations for my flaws. I don't have to justify my mistakes, my past or my insecurities. I am growing and learning. Let me live. 

- Unknown 

I am pieces of quotes from my favourite books stitched together by song lyrics and I am glued together by midnight conversations and the sweet taste of coffee and I have this tendency to fall apart suddenly and I need you to somehow be okay with this because I am created by the souls who are brave enough to gather all my tattered pieces and put me back together. And oh God how I would love to be whole again.
- AKR

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & the people who create it & surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy. - Anonymous